Mike Eerie spoke at Mariners Church in Irvine this past weekend. I went to the Saturday night service where the attendance seemed sparse compared to usual, but the Holy Spirit seemed alive. It was a bit ironic in that Mike spoke about treasure.
The irony lies here: I attended the service alone, and showed up to a church far less full than usual, to be told that my prayer should be for me to realize that Jesus is the treasure in this life and I should use all of me to gain all of Him. It doesn't matter who I am there with, or how many seats are taken up, as long as I see Jesus as my treasure, and then, and only then will my heart be full.
A humbling realization, especially since I'm gaining back that sense of independence I've longed to be okay with again. I realize now I must be careful when structuring this independence. I cannot be independent in me, but find my independence by being dependent on God.
This independence will look something like this: I'd much rather sit in an empty church glorifying my treasure, than sit in a room full of people glorifying ourselves.
Through my dark time I've come out on the other side faithfully listening to God telling me to edit my life. Edit #1: Making Him the treasure my heart desires.
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